grandpa passed away a few days ago from liver cancer.


This is actually the first death I'm aware of that occured around me.
And I'm amazed how indifferent i feel. This must be what they call "i still don't believe it."
Infact I was in the middle of reading a manga when I heard the news, and after ten minutes I was back reading it.

Well I guess it doesn't really mean much when it happens to someone you only know of, don't really care and is halfway on the other side of the planet. But even so. Didn't even feel like asking for a plane ticket to attend the funeral. Was more concerned about the stress it was putting on my parents.

My first experience of a funeral was actually of my grandma's when I was 5, and the only thing I remember is happily running around the house and bugging all the relatives oblivious to the business at hand.
Feeling a tad bit guilty now.


Come to think of it, his brother died from liver failure, dad has bad liver and bro temporarily had bad liver.


...shit. -_-; Must be genetic. Not that I drink or smoke, but I get plenty of it second-hand.






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On the other hand.

Somebody get me a time machine.

now.

...somebody please.





Never felt so helpless and worthless in my life.

Goodbye to the most miserable year I've ever experienced.

Go get raped 2008. I hope your ass spontaneously combusts.

compete with people who seem to have absolutely no limit to their creativity...?


The world is just so...big. I've never felt that fact like this before...makes my skin crawl all over, under and inside out.

I open a box, and I get two. Open them both and I get an orb in each. The orbs project a million tiny boxes and I get entire universes.

...and then I realise I've only looked at one side of the original box.




Wow.

Just...wow.

Since everyone does meme's and I'm running from work to do, why not.

gf/bf meme taken from random asian site.



Must do it only if you currently have a gf/bf. Be honest. No secrets.


1. Are you going out with anyone?

Well, yeah. Duh. Wouldn't do it if I didn't.


2. How long have you been going out with that person?

Around 2 years? Can't remember exactly. Never cared.


3. How did you two end up together?

She was actually my brother's girlfriend...but he got a new girl and she was just abandoned so. I guess it was sympathy. I don't know. I don't really like her; I'm ready to break up anytime I find someone I really like.


4. Have you ever gone out with anyone else in your life before that person?

I've been with four others in the past.
The first one...don't even remember her name. It was going pretty well but one day when we were out on a nice cool summer evening I just...lost her. Never seen her since. But then she wasn't much to look at. Quite old fashion-minded as well.
The second one...oh man. She was a brick. A little chubby and heavy, aggresive when angry, scary overall. Horrible singing too. Was looking for the earliest chance to dump her the whole time.
The third one...she was lovely. She was just awesome. Great body, great sense of fashion, looked amazing and a cute little butterfly tattoo on her chest. I can't believe I let her go. I guess I was just attracted to the new fourth girl.
The fourth one, man, she was a beauty. The first time I saw her. Everything the third girl had plus awesome voice. And finally someone with the same nationality!
...but eventually got sick of her. Meh.


5. And the one you've had the longest relationship with?
The current one, though like I said...I'd rather not think I have a gf at the moment.


6. What colour best describes your lover?
Black. Or dark brown? So moody!


7. Any interesting memories?
Hell no. She's not attractive much and I don't like her so. Nothing happens in a relationship if one doesn't like the other. I never really even talked to her until recently when I required her skills. Just using her until I find someone else~


8. Do you feel like cheating at all?
As soon as I get some money I'm gonna break up and run off.


9. Anything you want to say to your current lover?
Look, you're nice and all, but I'm not your man. I don't like you. Don't take my occasional kindness as a sign I like you. Please wake up and realise you are only temporary. *sigh*




And one more rule to this meme.






























By "gf/bf" we mean "mobile phone". Please make it sound as human as possible.



....
My first one was some random shitass Motorola I lost when I was jogging outside at night, the second was a Nokia 3310-i'm not lying when I say it's a brick; it's a friggin weapon- the third Nokia 8250, the fourth was a Samsung T100 and the current one I got from my bro is Nokia 9000 something. Don't care. It's only function is a beeper nowdays.

...This is kinda fun. xD

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Dx!!!!!!!!!!














...I need a blog.